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Changes You Would Or Wouldn't Make
In our last womens work furlough writing session De-bug asked what are some of the things you would or wouldn't change if you had the chance?
Here are their responses.

When My Father Died I Wasn't The Same
Cassandra Anderson

If I could change any event in my life it would be when my dad died. He died of a massive heart attack when he was 33 years old. It was September 16, 1993. I was 8 years old when it happened. A couple of months after he died, I started using and eventually selling drugs. I really believe all of my bad decisions wouldn't have happened if my dad was around. I was daddy's girl. I believe if he had been around I would have been able to have a childhood. When he died I was the oldest of three kids. My mom was too high to be there for us so I took on the mother role for my siblings. I ended up getting myself into a lot of bad relationships with men who were old enough to be my father. Something to fill the void of not having a dad. I believe my whole life would have been different if I hadn't lost my daddy.

It Was Hard For Me But God and My Children Were There For Me.
By Judy Smith
I wish I could be me again. I lost my sanity in 1987 when I lost my mother and son at the same time. My mother passed away and my other son was sentenced to prison for life. That was a pain I could not endure. I turned to drugs and alcohol that my so-called friends turned me on to. I didn't know anything about that life style and it really destroyed my children's lives and mine. I lost my children to the system and other families adopted them. This hurt so bad. From this I felt I lost a will to live. I tried to commit suicide when my son, Mario died in 1999. After his death all of my children came from different states to find me. They told me that they love me. I love my children and I wish that I had not turned my back on them and on God. I was a Christian until my mother passed away. I loved my mother and son's so much. I am sorry God, please forgive me and to my children will you forgive me, too. God is restoring me. I love you God, Jesus and I love you children.


My New Sober Way Of Life I Would Not Change.
Megan Goodeill

If I could change any one thing that I've done in my life I would change my thought process the day before I began to take drugs. I would have dealt with my stress and depression in other ways besides using. Maybe I would have talked about my problems or written them down. I would have even changed the day my husband went to prison and then I wouldn't have been in that stressful and depressed state of mind, which led me to drugs. But today I'm clean and it's been one year. And my new sober way of life I would not change.

Choices Can Make A New Me
Jodi Kerswell

If I could go back in time I would change the choices that led me to where I am today. I would have left that no good boyfriend long before I did. I would have remembered to say no to the drink, hit and line. I would have been stronger. I would not let the pressures of life dictate my actions, I would not have lost myself and all my dreams of what I'd grow up to be. I would have grown to be free, to be just me.

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