Feel My Pain
Poem by Angel Fernando Chavez Alvarez // Art by Fernando Amaro Jr.

This is a story about those who
have been hurt by the one's they love;
the crying, pain and suffering
in your heart. The night's when
you cry yourself to sleep.
When you can only turn to
yourself for help, but even then,
you are still only left in your pain.
I find myself walking along the edge.
Cold air rushes pass my face.
Below, I hear the roaring of
the rushing water under me.
It start's to bring back the memories.
The memories of her.
The rush I got from hearing her talk,
When she whispered my name.
With one single look,
she made my body melt.
She had my soul. She had my heart.
She was my keeper, but she tore me apart.
My foot slips, I hear the rock's
splash into the river below.
I am awaken from my dream state.
I find myself all alone,
but still in my pain.
I look at the night sky.
The moon so full. I look at
the star's; billions and billions
of stars in the night sky.
Can they feel my pain?
I want to be a star, I want to fall.
Fall forever. Let the river
below catch my body, take me away from this pain.
The wind blows. Screaming
through out the tree's.
Whispering to me all of it's sad sorrow's.
Telling me all of the silent
cries from all of the broken
heart's, all of those star's.
All the one's who are trapped in their pain.
A light shines from the forest.
The crackle of wood is heard from behind.
I turn around, but still on the edge.
' Is that you Jon.'
she says in a desperate voice.
I look into her face, I see her pain.
but it is to late. I am too close to the edge,
too far to come back.
' Jon, what are you doing?' she says.
'Dancing, walking the wire,
making my closure.' I say.
I look at the water.
Emotions rush through
out my body, my pain comes upon me,
I start to cry. The reflection of
the moon light gleams upon my face.
As the tear's come pour down.
She walks closer. I step back further.
' Come on Jon, you are being ridiculous,
come, let's go and talk about this.'
she says. ' You don't love me,
why did you hurt me?' I say.
' I didn't mean to.' she says.
' Take my hand, come with me.
I will help you.' she says.
She stretches her hand out.
It felt like she was reaching
across eternity, to bring me
back from the depth's of hell.
I turn to her, I see her tears,
I see her pain. I start to
reach out for her hand, but I stop,
and look at her face.
' Now you can feel my pain.....'
I turn and jump off the edge,
into the darkness, away from my pain....."