Trinity
Poem by Melissa Matrix /// Fernando Amaro Jr.

When my mama was born, her mother gave her up, so she never had a chance

She was an unwanted foster child, who was told she was nuttin but white trash

They said she wasn't gunna be nobody

But she knew they was wrong and she was gunna be somebody

she was gunna be a singer cause she had a voice of an angel

But that 1 day, it all went away because of Emanuel

He raped her, he left her and she thought he was her friend

He filled her stomach with a baby,that would hold her down till the end

She was pregnant and she had to face the people who always told her that it was her destiny

My sister was the product of this, she was named Trinity

My mother was kicked out, she was forced to raise a child at 15

But she only thought about herself, it was trinity whose pain should of been seen

My mother blamed Trini everyday of her life

Nobody coulda saved Trini not even Jesus Christ

They lived in living rooms and closets

Alleys of streets, and friends houses

My mother went from man to man

Men that said they would give her the world, but only gave her another baby at hand

My mother was never a singer, never nuttin

Just a mother of children she never wanted

And she said this happened because of trinity

Her father was a rapist and our mother soon asked her to leave

She was on 3 different drugs to hide wat Trini? so called? did to her

Because she was the reason why she proved everybody right, why she could never become a singer

Trini became a GD, dats onea the major gangs in chicago

She witnessed deaths, she told me it was easy for her to pull triggers tho

She also met the man of her dreams, she said he would do anything

She had 2 children and she said was gunna stop all the illegal shit for him

But before u know it she was in jail, I guess it was just, wrong place wrong time

She stayed there 3 years, when she came out she said she was fine

But she wasn't, her man was gone but she said dat wasn't her concern

Her children were, but they aint know her, she held them and they would squirm

See Trinity was unwanted from the moment my mother saw the pregnancy test

Her life had 2 roads from there , death or arrest

Walked into the bathroom and I found her body, Trinity was layin in the tub

Looked like she was swimming in a overflowin pool of blood

Her face was still and it was filled with dried tears

I screamed in shock, but I should of known this would happen, wasn't it clear?

She ended a life dat in a way, was never suppose to be started

And in that quick moment, I wondered if she still blamed her father

Trini's children are in foster families and u can only guess how they r gunna end up

their lives r gunna mimic my mothers, Trini's and just follow our family tree up so

whose fault is it really my mothers, my grandmothers, emanuels or trinity's?

It aint nobodys,

I miss Trini but I guess she aint have a choice, so I understand

The real funny thing is tho. At trinity's funeral, my mother sang

~ R. I. P. Trinity aka Trini (Feb 19 1980- April 4 2002) ~