I Wish
Poem by Esperanza Gueta
Art by Ms. Understood

I wish my eyes were shut.
Then I'd have no fears.
Go through life with no hate or tears.
Or if I were numb, I'd feel no pain.
Never drowning in shadows, or
Soaking in shame.
Maybe an angel
Feeling good so much, Then I wouldn't
be scared of love's sweet touch.
Kissing me softly with one deep breath.
Sweeping me into Eternity with the rest.
I wish I wasn't always so alone.
Everybody's something I just want to go home.
Nobody to talk to, they're all cloned and fake.
And then there's me
Easy to break.
they think I stand on a pedestal,
Perfect Picture in a Frame.
There's more to it.
Underneath the mask there's shame.
Horrible things said and done,
But nobody will listen.
To them it's fun.
I hold onto my anger locked in a box.
Chains all around it.
Attached are locks.
I wish there was a key to let it all out.
But instead it builds up.
Exploding without a doubt.
Sometimes I want to scream so long that life escapes.
Then I'd shut my eyes.
I'd be the angel of disgrace.